Wow, thanks for sharing, Naud. I really appreciate the candid stream of consciousness here. May I suggest that you try doing morning pages every day for half-an-hour. At some point that will morph into you spending an hour or two per day creating things like YouTube videos, games, and websites. You will start with just one video, and then that will become two. Before you know it, you will have created thousands of videos, games, and websites. Good luck and keep me posted.