Oh. In the story, the illusion of self dropped in December 2001, revealing the absolute, the fundamental nature of reality. That recognition has gradually integrated over the past ~18 years. Since then, the world seems to be perceived by this brain somehow differently from most people. It’s clear that there is no real separation between anything; everything is fundamentally the same thing. There’s no real sense of a self here. There is a body and brain and hands and typing is happening. The past and future don’t seem to be real beyond being concepts, which they are.

This article might help you to understand:

My Struggle with Enlightenment